I can remember not
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I can remember not being in Zimbabwe
I can remember not having a fridge
I can remember not seeing a zebra last Thursday
I can remember not being awake
I can remember not thinking about you
I can remember not being Natalie 
I can remember not always being awake when driving 
I can remember not choosing my first lover
I can remember not going to Egypt
I can remember not having enough money to buy a car
I can remember not being afraid
I can remember not going home
I can remember not choosing the green one
I can remember not drowning
I can remember not breaking my leg
I can remember not seeing you with nothing on
I can remember not one but two
I can remember not being on time
I can remember not remembering your birthday
I can remember not wanting to make love with you
I can remember not being aware of who I was
I can remember not paying the bill
I can remember not going home
I can remember not choosing to be alone
I can remember not seeing you in Sainsbury’s, she said
I can remember not falling in love with Lynn
I can remember not feeling safe
I can remember not being aware of death
I can remember not showing up for work
I can remember not wanting to go to Jerusalem
I can remember not dealing with things properly
I can remember not making a decision one way or the other
I can remember not seeing things the way I do now
I can remember not being aware of a change
I can remember not talking to the police
I can remember not liking the way you said I should say it
I can remember not smoking, but differently to how I remember not smoking before I started smoking
I can remember not feeling good about alot of the things I did
I can remember not wanting it to stop
I can remember not being able to walk, once or twice 
I can remember not asking you the things I really wanted to know
I can remember not wanting to be in India
I can remember not loving Natalie
I can remember not feeling confident
I can remember not reading Lorca and Conrad
I can remember not finishing my meals
I can remember not eating enough
I can remember not drinking too much 
I can remember not knowing how to smoke
I can remember not knowing the taste of jackfruit 
I can remember not knowing where I was going
I can remember not knowing what to do in the company of adults
I can remember not thinking I was good enough
I can remember not being there for you
I can remember not feeling good about certain colour choices
I can remember not wanting to be with you forever