not interested

Even bright flowers have withered movement that I'm not interested in.


Stay where you are

Stay for dinner
Stay for breakfast
Stay, if you leave you could be shot
Stay in bed with me
Stay in touch
Stay till the end
Stay out till 4
Stay behind after work
Stay awake
Stay on top
Stay with her because she can't be trusted
Stay together
Stay in the best hotels with your best friends 
Stay alive
Stay up
Stay when you know you should go
Stay for another
Stay, I might never see you ever again
Stay because leaving scares you
Stay because it's the right thing to do
Stay away you bastard
Stay in Barcelona for a week 
Stay with Natalie
Stay with her forever
Stay till the end
Stay off the vodka
Stay out
Stay, I'm going

I Will commentary

I've just received this beautiful commentary on 'I Will' written by Mark Goodwin. Watch the video here .

Commentary on I Will

A poet would say that we make the world and our selves through speaking. If we follow the way older Eva changes her intonations or repeats – two years later – the same stumbles on certain words, then perhaps this video nearly proves what a poet would say. Those earlier stumbles for whatever biological, psychological or phenomenological reason become ingrained in the creature’s ways of speaking. The younger word-creature (for humans are creatures of words) takes much more time to act out and indulge in the sounds of her words, and sometimes she mouths silent but clear disagreements with what she is being given to speak. And this is the crux of the video, I will, for it shows clearly how we are all ‘given’ our words by other humans; how our voices are passed down to us through sound (and possibly through genes). The video reveals how as we get older we learn how to say our words, and also how to remain silent about what we might think of the words passed on to us. The older Eva has her thoughts behind her eyes, her eyes sparkle with those untold thoughts as she speaks the poem, or script she ‘performs’ ... whereas the younger word-manipulator is more the manipulated, and it seems that the words animate her. The older face displays many physical changes, but those changes are more ‘held’ and negotiated; whereas the physical expressions of the younger speaker are broad and spontaneous. A poet might also say that to make poetry one has to balance between the dancing word-player of the younger Eva and the restraints and requirements of speaking in an adult world. And a poet would like to think that the fully grown human animal only knows themselves properly at the times they speak just on the cusp of childlike chanting and elderly grace.

Mark Goodwin  June 2014

felix poetry festival

Convalescent Fade will be showing at the Filmpoem Festival, which is part of the Felix Poetry Festival, on the 14th June in Antwerp.
I'll upload it soon.  More information about the festival is here

for Jovanka

I'm trying to contact Jovanka Willsdorf, who wrote and performed this beautiful song, to get permission to use it. If anyone can help, let me know please. Click to play...


we are

we are trying to remember
we are hoping for better things
we are together
we are not helpless
we are doing the best we can
we are not going anywhere
we are thinking
we are meeting less often
we are not one
we are not leaving yet
we are going to Toledo in a yellow sports car
we are awake
we are hiding
we are defining a space
we are negotiating a position 
we are running out of time
we are optimistic about the future 
we are confusing things
we are losing 
we are navigating
we are like an open book
we are one step ahead
we are playing in the water 
we are at home tomorrow
we are trying our best
we are falling down
we are choosing what we want
we are eating less
we are going for a drink after work
we are wasting time
we are tired and broken 
we are testing each other
we are very very close
we are whispering philosophy
we are making progress
we are making a mess
we are looking for something to believe in 
we are cold sometimes
we are on our way home
we are sharing an idea
we are timeless
we are confused
we are counting the cost
we are open to suggestions
we are willing to help
we are friendly
we are going to be hurt
we are hurting already
we are wearing out our welcome
we are frightened of the future 
we are aware of the complexity of the current position 
we are meaning what we say
we are talking to you
we are doing our best
we are relying on each other
we are expecting each other to do well
we are a team
we are collaborating on a number of projects
we are good company
we are patient
we are satisfied with the current arrangement
we are sitting pretty
we are learning all the time
we are changing the rules
we are dangerous
we are partners
we are exchanging information
we are taking a risk
we are well aware of how this might look
we are not telling you everything
we are trusting you to discover something
we are giving this to you
we are very organised
we are relaxed and happy
we are fit and healthy
we are addiction free
we are talking too much
we are wasting time
we are going to see less of each other after this
we are trying to put you in the picture
we are saying what we believe to be true
we are going to feel empty after this 
we are going to miss each other
we are going to be lonely
we are sad sometimes
but we are generally optimistic
we are sleeping well 
we are fond of olives
we are meeting a lot by accident
we are aware of a lot of things unsaid
we are alive
we are strong
we are in love

we are awake